“The brain is a monstrous, beautiful mess.”
Summary: “When twenty-four-year-old Susannah Cahalan woke up alone in a hospital room, strapped to her bed and unable to move or speak, she had no memory of how she’d gotten there. Days earlier, she had been on the threshold of a new, adult life: at the beginning of her first serious relationship and a promising career at a major New York newspaper. Now she was labeled violent, psychotic, a flight risk. What happened?
In a swift and breathtaking narrative, Cahalan tells the astonishing true story of her descent into madness, her family’s inspiring faith in her, and the lifesaving diagnosis that nearly didn’t happen”
My Thoughts: Fabulous, gripping, fascinating and scary. I’m talking I literally could not put this book down. Susannah takes you on the ride through her change as a caring, loving person to quite literally a mad woman. The book is based on her own medical issues which were misdiagnosed many times. It really drives the point home that there are many other people in this World that may not be going through her disease specifically, but something similar and do not have the access to medical care that is needed.
“Instead of worrying that my life was out of control, I began to focus on anything that made me feel strong.”
“Now I think that this shame emerged out of precarious balancing act between fear of loss and acceptance of loss. Yes, I could once again read and write and make to do lists, but I had lost confidence and a sense of self. Who am I? Am I a person who cowers at the back of a spin class, avoiding everyone’s gaze? This uncertainty about who I am, this confusion over where i truly was in the time line of my illness and recovery, was ultimately the deeper source of the shame. A part of my soul believed that I would never be myself, the carefee, confident Susannah, again.”
“Sometimes, just when we need them, life wraps metaphors up in little bows for us. When you think all is lost, the things you need the most return unexpectedly.”